Monday, August 13, 2012
I'm a Closet Messianic: Question 26
I believe that's it's possible to love Christians without being attracted to their religion. I even visited a Christian church this past Sunday. I felt very loving toward the people...but I sort of drifted during the service. The pastor held my attention whenever he talked about the book of Acts but whenever he made excursions into broader areas I found myself growing sleepier and sleepier (and at one point toward the end I momentarily lost my battle, dozing off for the briefest of moments).
They are doing a lot of things right. I observed that in the lobby they had an Israeli flag right next to the American flag and that the t.v.'s intermittently advertised that Messianic singer Marty Goetz was going to be visiting. All of these things show growth and potential.
However, they hate G-d's Torah. I'd gone in with the secret hope that they would be Baptist's in name only and that they would really be a Baptist-Hebrew Roots hybrid church. And in some ways they are. Certainly more so than most Baptist churches. But they still recite the same old lies "Jesus fulfilled the law!"
Will I go back next Sunday? Sure. Am I happy about it? I guess I'd rather be in a non-segregationist Messianic synagogue or Hebrew Roots congregation. But since that's not available, this is probably the next best thing.
It's definitely not the ideal though. And I know the Leman's out there will just say that I'm "paganoid" but that's not it. The pagan aspects of Christianity are not the only drawback to attending Christian church. Here's the drawback: if they find out you are secretly Torah-observant they will treat you like you are a closeted homosexual. It's a sickness that must be treated because "the law is the way of sin and death" and "to follow the law is to deny grace" etc, etc.
ON TO THE QUESTION:
Is the urge to separate from Christianity a healthy urge? If so, is it unhealthy to suppress it? [I'm still gonna go to church but I'm interested in what you all have to say]
Posted by Peter at 6:32 AM